I don't know a helluva lot and very few things in this life are certain. I do know how I feel and it's nothing new since I have felt this way for years.
The first time I told her that I loved her,her face turned red, she gave me a playful punch in the arm and said, "How sweet. I love you too."
I do know that my, I love you, meant I was in love. Her, I love you, meant, she loved me as a friend. Then she did one of the things she does best, tucked tail and ran in the other damn direction. I crawled off into a corner to sull and pout and erased her name off my list. Well, I tried to.
You can imagine my surprise when I discover through our inner circle and close knit grape vine that there is someone else.Our relationship, the physical part at least had been over for some time prior to this,but the friendship remained.
I can take you to the exact spot where I heard the news. A bunch of us were together one Saturday night shooting the bull and naturally her name came up."She is involved with someone. It sounds serious." A twinge of pain rushed over me and I think my exact words were, "Get the fuck out".
He insisted it was true. "She is either in love or insane" was the response. I choose to believe she was insane. Certain that it would pass.
I still valued her as a friend and as someone very important in my life. We never,ever discussed, "him"

and I respected her feelings and pushed mine aside. That little bit of news cost me around 800 bucks. Fist through walls,breaking windows,etc.
I wonder now if things would have been different if I hadn't. I sat back and waited to see what would happen. The strange thing is not 1 damn thing has happened.
I sought comfort in the arms of women and the bottom of a bottle. I don't understand it. I swear, I just don't get it!
While picking up something for supper earlier, someone walked by me wearing her perfume.
I'm not crazy. Just in love. I'll bide my time. Because like I said last week, history has a strange way of repeating itself. And when it does, BigH, will be front and center.